brittanyyy.

Blink 182 was amazzzinnggg last night. (: So glad that I did not miss it. FOB and AAR were pretty great too.



This weekend = homework. Sound familiar? Justtt like every other weekend since I've started college. FML. I need sleep. I have to write a paper, and I'm reeeeealllyy dreading that.


Dashboard Confessional November 24th at Warehouse ♥ who's goinggg?!

Bad things happen to good people. Life isn't fair, but who ever said it was?



Probably dropping biology till next semester. Yuck. ): School sucks. Not my school; just across the board...

One thing that drives me crazy is when people have to stay busy ALL of the time, ESPECIALLY when 'staying busy' means partying. When you're absolutely out of your mind bored when you don't do anything for one whole day, or even a whole few hours, you need to chill the fuck out. I'm not advocating absolutely laziness or solitude, but I think that our overly stimulated generation is a serious problem that needs to be fixed.

It was so incredibly real, it took a while to convince myself that it was not real.


We were there in the hospice with Janie just like we had been earlier that evening. Janie was laying with her head slightly tilted back, mouth open, grabbing for air. I was looking down, just like I was when I was there, head in my heads, at the end of her bed. She pulled in a breath slightly louder than the last few, and suddenly she said something. She spoke.
I woke up immediately and started pulling myself back to reality. Bed. Alarm clock. iPod. I ripped my iPod ear buds out of my ears, sat there for a second in shock, and then I grabbed my blankets close to me and started bawling. I've never had such an intense dream in all of my life. I still cannot get over it. I'm still convincing myself that it was only a dream...

My aunt Janie lost her battle with cancer Thursday, September 19, 2009 at 5:13pm. Her closest loved ones were there by her side, including myself. She was an extremely strong and courageous good woman. She put others first and her own desires last. She took care of her husband during his battle with cancer, and she took care of my grandmother as she aged.
She was a survivor of breast cancer until it returned to her bones after going into remission for 12 years. This disease eventually ravaged her brain, her vision, her hearing, and her organs. She never gave up and fought it till the VERY end. She always had hope, and she always kept her faith.
I hold my aunt with the highest respects, and hope to have nearly as much strength and courage as she had.


standup2cancer.org

[will probably add more later]

life is a bitch. ♥


college is great but it's kicking. my. ass.

Shower, algebra homework, then bed hopefully.

(404): i hope kanye doesn't show up to patrick swayze's funeral. " i'll let you get back to your funeral in a minute...but michael jackson had the best death of the year. just sayinnn ".

I'm lonely..


I want to make every song by Dashboard Confessional come to life..in my life.

I want to get a tattoo. I've decided.

I'm exhausted. School is sooo tiring now. 3 exams this week, 2 down, 1 to go. Got an 90 on my algebra test. New mascara. Life is good.

(406): Dude michael jackson died, guess he's not 'stayin aliveee' any longer.
(1-406): Uh dude that wasn't a michael jackson song it was the BGs

R.I.P - Michael Jackson

Cell phones. I mean I'm just as cell phone obsessed as anyone, I have a G1 and I loveee it. But I hate hate hate how people, while in public, which just bluntly stand out in the middle of the aisle, or wherever, to text. It's extremely rude. It's like the become completely oblivious to the world around them, as if they're the only ones there.

Today was a nice day. Skipped school because I only had one class, and it was cut short anyway. Hung out with my boyfriend for several hours. I love laying around with him. (: haha, cheeseball. I really need to get on the ball of getting a job, the book store never called, ugghhh. Any suggestions?

I'm always down for discovering new tunes. Hit me up with some suggestions. (:

those last couple of posts. i don't need to surround myself with people that make me feel that way. i'm done.

And I realize that everyone who lives will someday die and die alone.

i feel like such a fuck up right now.
goodnight.

Today will be as unproductive as yesterday, but tomorrow, tomorrow I'm going to school, then working out. That's productive.

I got woken up early this morning, early meaning like 10:30, by tree cutters. I hateee when that happens, yard people always wake me up.

I watched this movie Ballad of Jack and Rose. It was kind of weird..but it was pretty good.

I've been all about Deja Entendu lately. I don't doubt that it's their best cd by my standards.

(This is the end)
This story's old but it goes
On and on until we disappear
(This is the calm)
Calm me and let me taste the
Salt you breathed while you were underneath
(We are drowning)
I am the one who haunts your
Dreams of mountains sunk below the sea
(After the storm)
I spoke the words but never
Gave a thought to what they all could mean
(Rest in the deep)
I know that this is what you want
A funeral keeps both of us apart
(Washed up on the beach)
You know that you are not alone
I need you like water in my lungs